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Self Forgiveness and the Law of Attraction
April 14, 2007
WELCOME TO Shaman Within Newsletter
I give thanks to the Creator for my Earth Walk with all its
experiences and adventures! Each painful or joyful
experience of my Earth Walk has gifted me with insight and
wisdom. Each has enhanced my dignity, acknowledgment of
listening within and recognition of my Spirit-self.
This newsletter is an appreciation for an opportunity to
share with you my walk upon sweet Mother Earth. Through
these sharings, I invite each of you to remember your
soul's purpose is as unique as you are unique.
May you see enlightenment as a pathway of daily interaction
filled with ego, emotions,spirit and body. May all of these
pathways gift you with recognition of your perfection and
the unique gifts you bring to the Children of the Earth.
SELF-FORGIVENESS AND THE LAW OF ATTRACTION
Sounds like an intensive topic, yes?
You might ask, what is the value of self-forgiveness?
What does the Law of Attraction have to do with self
forgiveness?
Have you noticed what is happening in your world? What
sort of events? activities? emotions?
Do you see yourself doing the same things over and over?
speaking the same words? having the same re-actions?
attracting certain types of people?
Perhaps this personal story will assist....
Recently,I came to an awareness of this intensive feeling
in my gut. As I examined my pain I recognized a familiar
gnawing. Rather, a familiar repressing of this gnawing.
As I gave attention to my gut, i began to see images in my
mind of an experience that happened many years ago. Many
years ago.
As I allowed the images of the experience to show
themselves, I began to feel embarrassed, terror. guilt and
shame. I felt confused as I was unable to decide what to
do or how to relate to this past event. I had kept this
situation quiet and safely tucked away. Never to be spoken
or expressed ever again....so I thought.
My stomach was hurting. My crying seemed uncontrollable. I
was walking around in circles. I felt trapped. what now?
What do I do with all of this pain, emotions and
remembrance of this past experience? My god, i am so
embarrassed! I feel such shame!
Spirits who walk with me, Come show me what to do. Can I
? Will I ? speak to anyone, someone of this experience?
When I awoke the next morning, I was in awe of the messsage
given in dreamtime. The message was specific and clear.
I was to speak with the two friends shown in my dream. I
was to speak with each of them separately and tell my story
of embarrassment and shame.
....and so I did.....
I was amazed and awed as each friend listened. Listened to
my story. Neither of them corrected me, judged me or asked
why. They simply gifted me with an opportunity to express
myself and tell my story. I felt their acceptance. I felt
their appreciation. I felt their love for me regardless of
my self judgment.
The release was absolutely amazing! Tears rolled down my
face as sobs of deep breaths shook my body. Free at last!
Free at last! My confession was liberating all my
embarrassment, all my shame and all of the pain I held
tenaciously in my body.
My awareness peaked as I saw the consequences of harboring
this secret for all of these years. I have punished
myself, created pain of all sorts, felt unworthy and most
of all held shame as a badge of courage. This shame felt
like a collection of all the pain I have ever suffered.
My shame was so intense that I felt trapped within myself
only able to wear my badge of courage. The subtleties of
shame gave me an excuse for feeling small and
insignificant and never believing in anything especially
myself.
My awareness suddenly turned into desire for self
forgiveness: to forgive harboring pain and suffering and
the consequences I created to prove my self hate and
unworthiness; to forgive my belief of requiring this
experience of shame.
Once self forgiveness was spoken and accepted, I felt the
possibility of happiness in my world. What grand joy!
Imagine....Happiness in my world. My body relaxed and the
gnawing in my stomach was completely gone. I felt the pain
empty. I felt filled with myself. The tears of cleansing
refreshed my very soul!I felt alive!!
The birth of self forgiveness gifted me with a shift of
perception and acceptance of ALL of myself. I noticed my
walking with dignity and my spirit-self leading the way.
Oh, happy day!
I give thanks to all the actors in my play of shame. I
release all the actors from their participation in my play.
I go on with my Earth Walk in dignity and thanks for this
experience.
Here are some suggested questions to ask yourself:
1) What experiences do I harbor?
2) What is the benefit of holding on to the experience?
3) AM I willing to name my experience?
4) Am I willing to forgive myself for believing I require
this experience?
5) Am I willing to release all those who have participated
in my Play? Please feel free to copy and distribute any information you find on this website!
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